Yesterday

I ran d miles and did arnd 300 crunches i shoveled and swept the back yard and i did 20 minutes of yoga.
I would sit still. I exercized while i watch tv. I went grocery shopping and only bought food less that 100 cals a serving. When i come off my fast tmrw i wanted to be prepared so i dont just eat anything i have.
My husband and i almost split up. We faught and i packed all my things and he told me to leave. I kept trying to but he wudnt let me he just kept fighting.
I know now it was his stuborn way of keeping me.
He told me how pretty and perfect i look and i broke down.
I dont see that. I dont feel that and i felt like he was lying to me.
Well we decided on couceling and trying to work through our problems.
My friend T told me if i dont stop being so weight obsessed that she is going to tell my hubby and dad that i am anorexic.
Ive never told her that but she always knows my flaws.
I told her i would stop because i dont want to lose my ANA not right now.
Im just starting to feel good.
I am down to 110 and my body fat is 13 % still a bit high for me even though its in the dangerously low percentile.

I still want to get to 102 well actually i think ive decided on 100 now... 102 is only 8 lbs away.
Well i am 15 lbs under what drs say should be my perfect weight. But i think i wud cry if i ever weighed 125.
I need to run now i feel like a fat lard i havent done anything all morning.