So last night my hubby walked in on mr purging the ojay i drank. Thank god hes so clueless to what im actually doing. I just blamed it on an upset tummy.
As of right now i am 52 hrs food free. I had 160 cals today because he brought me frapaccino and i tried turning it down but i was still a little worried he might catch on.
today i got really nervous when we went grocery shopping. i couldnt get out of there fast enough.
he wanted to eat pizza while we were out and i was dreading it.
its really hard for me to purge when im not in the comfort of my own home. it was the only thing on mind. i obviously couldnt skip dinner because he tried to get me to eat lunch twice. i was afraid if i turned down pizza he would get suspicious.
well crisis averted i was able to talk him into letting me cook. i figured id have to eat but at least i could puke after.
well as if God himself wanted me to finish my fast we had guest who distracted my hubby for hal the night so he didnt even noticed i never ate the spagetti.
i want to buy a food scale so i know exactly how much my fruit and veggies weigh so i can be as accurate with my cal counting as i can be
i still have another 20 hrs left in the fast and tmrw will be easy seeing as how my hubby works from 11 until 9. i think i might hold out until sunday just cus i can.
my stomach doesnt even hurt today!!
i worked out and i just feel alive alive alive!
i power walked 2.5 mls did 250 crunches and two sets of 10 min buns and thigh work outs.
i feel good good good!
well i should try and sleep a little. ive been writing a memoir of how i got to where i am today and my eyes hurt from staring at a screen.
idk why i think i should sleep im turning into an insomniac!
i wake up like every hour... after i take at least an hour to wind down and fall asleep.
oh well heres to wishful thinking.
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