Sooo for the last two days all i have eaten is a 2 cups of chopped celery with tapitio ontop.. Its has 0 cals and is really good...
But anyways i wokr uptoday and thght i cud go 48 hors no food.. But now im started to feel dizzy.
I wanna keep going feel the rush. I thrive for this hunger.... But then again i need to function for now.
I feel so guilty eating even celery...
Should i?
Wtf do i...
I wanna be thin and i even keep saying ill burn an extra 20 cals today to be safe but i cant eat it....
Something has me glued to this couch.
Idk... Maybe ill eat at somepoint.
My husband has seemed worried. Yesterday was tough and he kept texting me all day from work to tell me loves me..
I think thats why i didnt give up and give into my head.
He got home from kissed me snuggled me told be i looked beautiful. He rubbed his hands up and down my body saying he loves it. He gave me more attention than he has in what seems like forever..
He just kept asking me if i was okay and saying i was perfect.
Idk.. Maybe he is noticing theres something wrong....
He told me he wud do anything for me even die.... I told him id do anything for him... I though even live... I did that today.
Well i think i decided i dont need to eat :)
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